Bittersweet

We are finally saying good-bye to our original website for the girls (there is a link to it in the sidebar). I have updated it through their second birthday and that is where a "snapshot" will be taken of the site to be saved as keepsakes for the girls. They will each have a copy of the website in it's entirety, which is exactly what I had hoped would come available before we shut it down for good. Just this past week the keepsakes were finally announced and well, it's done, it's finished.

And of course, I am sitting here with tears streaming down my face because yet another piece of their "babyhood" is disappearing. I've been looking at old photos and find myself reliving each moment captured. It has been so bittersweet to put this age, their infant and toddler years, behind us.

That's just it...they aren't even toddlers anymore. Nope...they will be preschoolers in two short months. I'm not going to go through this all again...I know I do every couple months to you all. I love who they are and who they are becoming, but I so miss those days. I suppose every mother struggles with this...but I just don't know that it should be this hard. I mean, am I crazy? Is this normal?

The girls are talking a lot about babies right now, specifically baby brothers. In fact, Mia was very clear in her reply today when I asked her, "Do you know what Mommy bought you at the store?" Her eyes lit up, "A baby? A baby brother, not a baby sister mommy...a baby brother, a brother is a boy, mommy."

My response, "Uh, no, I bought you some Quackers. Sorry honey, but you can't get a baby brother at the grocery store. I'll see what I can do for you, though."

And of course, I would love for them to have that gift, the experience of having a younger sibling, a brother (or a sister...we're not picky around here...well, at least I'm not). AND...I would love it, too. Sigh...maybe...maybe not. Who knows what lies ahead, what He has in store for us. But still, I can hope, and I can dream, and I can wish, and I can pray...that maybe, someday, we will be able to start up a new website for our third miracle.

Until that day is realized or the hope of it fades away, I will continue to revel in our two miracles and their amazing little lives thus far, and bright, beautiful futures that lie ahead.